Well, this is my first time at this. My husband has suggested it many times, especially as in theory I'm the keener writer of the two of us. Just never got around to it before. However, now we're having a baby it seemed one of those historic occasions - to us at least - that felt worthy of being marked with some sort of virtual-tribute. So here it is. My blog.
The last three months have been the slowest of my life. Waiting to find out whether those Clearblue tests were right, whether the unknowing alcohol at new year had done irreparable damage, whether in fact it was all a figment of my imagination, and whether I would be caught out as the fraud I felt like the second that ultrasound probe kicked into action.
So it came as something of a surpise that there was something there. And not some meaningless shadows that took ages to discern - this was a fully formed very obviously baby-shaped wriggler, and there was my name at the top of the screen. Never has photographic (sorry, ultrasonographic!) evidence felt so important. Never. Wasn't quite prepared for the rush of emotion, the tears, the need to be holding my husband's hand as we saw our baby for the first time. Wow. Absolutely speechless. And incredibly happy. It's quite rare to feel emotion quite so purely. Imagine how we'll feel when it's there in the flesh. Apart from exhausted and in pain, that is!
The next great part of it all is finally being able to tell people. Work's still in the dark but will be telling them this week so really pleased to be nearing that milesteone - will be sooooo much easier at work once everyone knows and I can stop trying to hide my ever expanding tummy, boobs and appetite! Hopefully Tuesday at the latest - depends on when my boss is around to tell really.
Anyway, I think that's quite a long ramble for my first venture - I'll keep it to this for now or I'll bore myself stupid when I read back over it. I wonder what will prompt the next entry...
